Emerge A New Part Of Me
By Shelly Bond
For feeling is the only way
Thinking makes it invisible
Feeling something so big
In my heart I embrace it
Without eyes I see it
Wetness caresses my tongue
I embody what I want
When I blink it’s gone
Somber stillness fills my veins
When I breathe, it comes back
My birthright to believe is still alive
Failure pushes me in
Sinking down
Swimming up
Drowning deeper and deeper in rejection
Sink or swim
Chest tight, nothing to grasp
I feel it stinging me awake
Slow and steady I rise
Out emerges a new part of me
Failure…Rejection…Unworth
I give up
I breathe again it is a part of who I am
This part of me who burns
This part who urns to do nothing else
Than what I see in the sky of my mind
What lights me up on the insides
Can no longer contain
From one moment to the next
From this breath to that breath
One step two step,
Skip, hop, run, sprint faster and faster
There is no more air
Stillness, slowness
It’s okay
In my heart I embrace it
Without eyes I see it
Wetness caresses my tongue
For patience and persistence is all I have
I must trust this is the way
This is the journey to what I want
Knowingness guides me from one moment to the next
To dream isn’t for the weak-hearted
For seeing the unseen is the only way